It’s about time I posted my first
blog of 2020 here. I’ve been tardy of late and been pondering my place in SL
for a while now, it having changed so much in the past few years and me having
been there for so, so, so, so long, which is a long time, very long, so, so, so,
so long.
Not that I still don’t enjoy it, I
do, just its hold on me has loosened, lessened, not what it was. Thankfully in
some ways in that once upon an SL time I was so enmeshed in it, it started
spilling over in m RL which is not what it’s supposed to do as far as I’m
concerned. What did leak through was mostly the worry, the angst, even some of
the drama, some directed at me some just happening around me. Of course we all
know and loudly proclaim in SL it should be drama-free, there’s even signs affirming
that on some sims: “This is a Drama-free
Zone”. A bit like “this is a
Zombie-Free Zone” except without the zombies, although I’m sure some of the
people I’ve met here can seem a bit brain-dead.
If you’re not careful though things
can snowball, get away from you, gather unexpected momentum and before you know
it: madness!
Well, fortunately for me I’ve
learned through my mistakes in investing too much ‘me’, so to speak, as in my emotions and trying to spot and head-off
any potential drama before it becomes drama, which can be a bit of an inworld skill in itself and not a
perfect science.
I always keep myself busy though and
never understand those who say, “I’m
bored”. It’s strange because f you are bored then why are you even there,
online, inworld, and if you are go do
something else instead. Some people seem to need to be ‘entertained’ all the time, and if you look hard enough, even thuogh
SL isn’t what it used to be (i.e.
admittedly not as much fun or interactive) there are things to do, place to
explore, amazing builds and sims to see that are just a feast for the eyes and
dancing, I love dancing.
So I’ve been thinking lately about
why I’m still here. One thing for sure I am loyal to my avatar, or me, which
sounds strange to anyone who’s never done SL. It’s like after a while because
it is like: are are you your avatar, or, is your avi you? Either way you can feel incredibly protective about her, and
in my case I do, and the thought of losing her after all this time is almost
unthinkable. It would be like losing a part of me, because she is in a way, my avi is me in so many ways: my beliefs,
attitudes and, even though you can choose any be anyone or anything here, I
have actually very closely physically modelled her on me. Not sure why although
I feel most comfortable in my own skin, although my hair in RL isn’t blue,
although sometimes it has been, as it has been other colours too.
I’ve never been a tree or a dragon
or a zombie. I am though a vampire, and a photographer. Some things have stayed
with me pretty much from the start or at least from my first year here, like
the blue hair I actually had sorted by my third week. I’m still finding new
things too, adventures, friends and such, though have never been into anything
overly competitive.
I
haven’t come to any conclusions yet except that I’m not going anywhere and
staying here in SL happily as me, probably because you just never know what
might happen next, and that for me, is still most exciting.~Anan~~
